Faith, Doubt, and Faith Again


Do you ever have those moments when you doubt what God has said? I mean the kind of doubt that has a faith backing. You know? Like you could royally screw things up or maybe just maybe He won’t follow through because it seems too good to be true. 

I was having a serious crisis of faith a few nights ago. I’m sure these will crop up every now and then until it happens. I don’t really like that feeling. I wish I could just let it go, and let God work it out. Well, I could do that if I put my mind to it. It’s hard because it’s easy to doubt. It’s a lot easier to roll with the world and wait until God does what He says He’ll do. That’s not fair at all to God. He doesn’t lie, cheat, or change His mind. Who am I to doubt that and take the easy road of entertaining these thoughts until it happens? Although it is easy to doubt and try and take the reigns, the results ends up as crap or you’re (I’m) hurt along the way. It would be no big surprise to God what I would do, but the result would be a huge shock to me. I just have to let it go and trust that He is faithful. I mean, He is. For real.
It’s a small sacrifice and a huge leap of faith. 
As I wait on Him, I have to constantly rely on Him to get me through. That’s the whole idea, and when it does happen on His terms, it is so much better than you could have ever expected. You just have to trust His word and not listen to the world and what people are saying or even what you see… especially what you believe about yourself. 
God created me and you. I’ve screwed up a lot, but I know that He will take care of me. I’ve screwed up because I didn’t rely on Him, and that taught me to listen to God and rely on Him. He’ll do what He says. I keep repeating myself because it’s important to understand that God is faithful. He’s is perfectly loving and faithful. Because He is faithful, I have faith in Him, and I obey Him so I become more like Him. 
Here are some verses about God’s faithfulness that I have surrounded myself in. Literally. I wrote them out on note cards and posted them on my wall at home. They surround a promise God made me.
The one who calls you is faithful, and he will do it. 1 Thessalonians 5:24
Every word of God is flawless; he is a shield to those who take refuge in him. Proverbs 30:5
He who is the Glory of Israel does not lie or change his mind; for he is not a human being, that he should change his mind. 1 Samuel 15:29
Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1
With all my love,
Jennifer

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